How Was Your Day?

How was your day? Mine was just wonderful. I am being facetious of course. I had to go to a meeting in the morning. As I was getting ready I knocked my wax machine off the counter. For those of you lucky enough to not be a she-man like me, let me explain. I have horrible facial hair struggles. If this is too much info, well, oh well. I use hot wax to remove it so I can look somewhat like a girl. It is sticky and ruins everything it touches except skin. All of my cords got tangled. It spilled everywhere ruining my water pic, the only skirt that really fits me, a shirt, my hair dryer, curling iron and nubulizer (for Joseph's breathing treatments). Not to mention the floor, which thank goodness it's tile, I will be scraping that for the next week. I also had it all over my hands and feet. Boy was that FUN!! I did pretty good not getting too upset. I mean, it's just stuff. I was running late by now for my meeting and I had to just go with my hair all wet and my feet, seriously, sticking to my shoes. When I came home I realized Emily was not feeling well and Joseph was wheezing so I thought it would be fine to just let them both stay home. I brought my phone to church, which I never do, so they could call if there was trouble. Not usually having a phone, I forgot to hold it in case it vibrated. Walking out from Sacrament meeting, there she was, no pants, her hair a wild mess like Medusa, and a very angry story. She was only wearing a long t-shirt and socks. I am not even joking. She continued to tell me how Joseph was trying to "strangle" her. I then looked at my phone to see 6 missed calls. I had three very frightening screaming messages from the both of them. I guess they were beating the crap out of each other. Nice. Knowing I had to be in young women's, my mom took her home and stayed with them. Then in young women's the advisor had her baby and was trying to teach. I knew I should help her with the baby, but I just couldn't do it. I couldn't bring myself to hold the baby. I felt like such a jerk. She was probably wondering why I wasn't helping her and being so rude. The truth is, I am having such a difficult time right now with my grief. The holidays are really not helping. I just could not bring myself to hold that baby. I just couldn't do it. I knew I should, but I couldn't. I hope that poor woman isn't offended by my weakness. I came home and sobbed because of it. Because of all of it. I can't stand hearing about or looking at babies. That is as honest as I can be. I can't stand it. I can't stand people complaining about pregnancies. I can't stand a lot of things right now. This is my problem, I'm aware of that. I know people aren't doing anything wrong. It is just my pain and I have to get through it. I feel as if my pain is invisible to others a lot of the time. I feel alone in my grief and I just want to scream to the world sometimes, "Don't you see how much I hurt?" So I guess this is my scream. I hope your day was better than mine and I hope tomorrow is better for me. I do have perfectly lovely days sometimes........and other times, not so much! I do thank those that are so supportive and loving to me as I stumble along this rocky road. You are my angels and I cherish you!

Football Banquet & Senior Dinner Dance

Being a senior is a lot of fun. Chris and his friends went to the senior dinner dance on Wednesday. They were supposed to go stag so they can dance with all the girls...and they did. He had so much fun!
Thursday was Christopher's football banquet. Dennis had to work so it was just me and Chris. I Have to say, I love it when it's just me and Chris hanging out. We did sit at a table with lots of our friends so I didn't get him all to myself. This is us before we left. I just love this kid! He is wonderful and I adore him!

The banquet was at a golf course by Utah Lake. It was gorgeous. The smell, not so good.

This is us at our table. I wore his cute button!

Someone hand made these gifts for the senior players. Chris is so proud of his.

Chris and his friends with their senior gifts. Can't believe he's going to be 18 in a matter of weeks. Where in the heck did the time go?

Tagged

Well I was tagged. I guess I am supposed to write 10 completely random things about myself. So, here it goes.

1. I am deathly afraid of condiments. You heard me, condiments. I do not know when this annoying phobia started, but it seriously is embarrassing. If ranch or mayo or something similar touches my hand, I freak out and have to scrub it off my skin. I eat all my food plain. No dressings, NOTHING! It is the weirdest thing.

2. I love to do Turbo Kick Boxing.

3. I lettered in cheerleading, basketball, softball, and volleyball in high school.

4. I have only been an active member of the church for 5 years.

5. I love to play cards and board games with my friends.

6. I have very expensive taste and I'm very poor. Not a good combo.

7. My life has been harder than you could ever imagine. Very few people know the reality of it all.

8. I would do anything for you.

9. I think I'm very down to earth and extremely funny!

10. My FAVORITE restaurant is Claim Jumper. Their potato cheese soup is my favorite thing to eat ever!!

I don't think very many people read my blog. If you do make a comment. I'd love it. I am supposed to tag some people so I guess I will tag Jamie (because you seriously need to post something), Teri, Ronda, Lindsey. I think it was four people. Who knows. Happy day!

Costumes

This is what Christopher's teacher said he could get extra credit for wearing in a fashion team performance at school. If you ever need a good laugh become my facebook friend and watch the link. Watching Chris watch the video was even better. He was laughing so hard. I'm so glad he can laugh at himself and be so lighthearted. I love that kid!
Emily wanted to be a baby. Those bows came in handy Jaime thanks. She doesn't look much different than any other day! She did use a pacifier and bottle that were bought for Sarah. She very proudly told all her class they were her sister's things. I think her wanting to be a baby for Halloween and use her sister's stuff is her way of connecting to her. What a sweet girl.

Okay, now here is my "Joe Cool" being cool. I think he looks hilarious in this Afro! He went on a great field trip to BYU yesterday. Only the student council from the elementary schools went. Three kids per school. So it really was a special treat. It was a student council leadership conference. They got pizza and even go to hear John Bytheway speak. Now that is just awesome!! He loved it so much and took very wonderful notes. What a great boy!

Mr. Hercules!

Time To Get Caught Up

It has been a couple months since I have blogged. We have been a busy little family.I have all the pictures in backwards order, but it takes so long to upload I'm keeping it just this way. I will go kid by kid to update you on all of their activities. Emily had her 10th birthday on October 18th. Now that is just crazy. She asks me every year if she can smash her face into her cake like when she was one. This year I found a store that does the free little first birthday cakes and let her have at it. She was thrilled.

She has been begging me for this dollhouse for a while. I finally got it for her. She was thrilled again. She has a new friend that she plays with, Emma. It is so wonderful when someone will play with my little girl. I don't know where she saw this, but it had to be exactly right. This was her birthday breakfast.

Her daddy started a tradition for her on her birthdays. He would always buy her pink carnations. She never lets me forget to get them for her. This year she asked Dennis to buy them. That was huge, but she was still mean to him. I know she's afraid to be nice as to not betray her daddy, but maybe her asking him is a small break through.

We have a very quaint pumpkin patch just down the street from our house. Like we can see it from our front yard. We love to go there and buy our pumpkins from the sweet family that sells them from their harvest. Emily likes to name them and never cut them. She never wants to "hurt" them. This is Lumpy, Bumpy and Crumpy.

Football season has started and that means dressing up and celebrating every game. Thank goodness for DVR and Direct tv. Now we never miss any games.

Emily has been doing some fun activities. She is doing gymnastics, which I don't know where any pictures are, but I'll get some. She loves it and is improving all the time. She also found a new love of cheer leading. She did a clinic for a fundraiser and wanted to keep going. For the first time since she was very little, she completed the whole season. It was very low key and no one had to be perfect so she did well without feeling pressure to do things a certain way. What a great experience. It has even made her decide to try basketball in a couple months. I decided to coach her team to give her the extra support she will need. Chris will be my assistant! So fun for us to all be together.

Joseph has been busy as usual. This is him smashing a car at a carnival. He goes to at least one birthday party a week. He is the most social kid I know. When not doing sports or Scouts he is off and running with any one of his hundreds of friends.

Joseph is also the new president of his school. He gets to go on a field trip to BYU this week for a student council type convention. It is so fun for him.

Joseph loves watching the football games so much. He dresses up too and takes pride in being like his daddy.

Joseph had a great football season. He did so well. Nothing gets him fired up like hitting hard and making great tackles. No Packer game is as exciting as watching my Joseph play!

Joseph decided to double up this year. He played soccer during football. Talk about crazy and busy. He did very well and got to play with a couple of great friends.

Now we move on to Christopher. What a wild ride this kid has had. He went to homecoming with this very cute girl.

In much more exciting news, he was the homecoming king. I was so happy for him. What an exciting night.

This is Chris and his "friend" Shayli. She is the reason Emily decided to do cheer. Shayli is so kind and wonderful to our family. I know Chris adores her and she him, but they want to make sure not to get serious. They went to homecoming with other people so they can go to prom together. They keep it on a friendship level. What smart kids!

This is Christopher in the hospital after a very serious concussion from a hard hit in a football game. It was very scary. He was seriously affected and ultimately decided not to play anymore. A hard, but wise choice. He still has headaches and residual affects. He is trying to gear up for basketball now and hopefully coach Joseph's team next year.

Chris made it on the fashion team this year. It has been so fun and really funny, watching him do his performances. What a ham!

Since he won "Battle of the Bands" last year the principal asked his band to play the Star Spangled Banner for Sophomore day. It was rockin' To see this or any other of his performances just go to you tube and type in "Spunky Motors". Also go to any of my videos mindyigerox on you tube to see all my kid's videos.

So now you know what we are doing some of the time. I will try to keep up more often because who wants to read a huge post like this? Whew! Happy day!

First Day of School

The Happiest Day of the Year!!!

Gravestone

This is Sarah's gravestone. They put it in today. I had a huge long post about all the negative stuff going on in my life and I just erased it. It was just so pathetic I thought I would spare you from my miserable rant! The upbeat Mindy is unavailable, please leave a message and she will (hopefully) get back to you shortly! On a VERY happy note, school starts in two days!!! YIPEEEEE!!!!!!